It’s been a long time again. Just to explain, I put no pressure on myself for this blog. I can’t promise how often I’m going to share on here…it will just be when I have something on my heart or have time. The past month and a half, I’ve been busy enjoying life and simply living life. I thought a few times about posting, but ended up choosing other ways to spend my time. However, here I am now, wanting to share about this morning.
I love the devotional, The Daily Light. I think I’ve mentioned it before and I’ll probably mention in the future as well. It’s great! Go get yourself a copy! So, I sat down this morning to spend some concentrated time with God and began with the devotional. Here it is:
September 12 – Morning
I have seen his ways, and will heal him.
I am the Lord who heals you.
Lord, You have searched me and known me. You know my sitting down and my
rising up; You understand my thought afar off. You comprehend my path and my
lying down, and are acquainted with all my ways. You have set our iniquities
before You, our secret sins in the light of Your countenance. All things are naked
and open to the eyes of Him to whom we must give account.
“Come now, and let us reason together,” says the Lord, “though your sins are like
scarlet, they shall be as white as snow; though they are red like crimson, they shall
be as wool.” He is gracious to Him, and says, “Deliver him from going down to the
Pit; I have found a ransom.” He was wounded for our transgressions, He was
bruised for our iniquities; the chastisement for our peace was upon Him, and by
His stripes we are healed. He has sent Me to heal the brokenhearted. Your faith has
made you well. Go in peace, and be healed of your affliction.
Is. 57:18; Ex. 15:26; Ps. 139:1-3; Ps. 90:8; Heb. 4:13; Is. 1:18; Job 33:24; Is. 53:5; Is. 61:1;
Where do I even begin with this? After the first few verses I was already in tears, tears of joy, tears of being free, tears of gratitude. It felt as though God was speaking directly to me – I wasn’t just reading scriptures, hoping they would apply to me. I felt like the people in the Bible whom Jesus healed and then they fell at His feet to thank Him and worship Him. It was possibly the first time I feel like I had true eyes of faith. I could see my healing, I could see my body cancer-free! With a bit of hesitation and fear, I felt the place where I can feel the swollen lymph-nodes. Still there, still swollen. And there I was with a choice before me, am I going to continue to see with these eyes of faith or switch back to my physical eyes? And for the first time I chose to continue with the eyes of faith. Because God’s voice, His love, His compassion, His healing was so real! I can’t explain it but I felt I was living Hebrews 11:1:
Now faith is the assurance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not yet seen.
This healing that I could see was not actually visible to the physical eye; but oh it was there and I could see it!
A couple of weeks ago, during worship at church, I felt this surge of faith to believe the promises of God that weren’t yet visible in the natural. I was struck that, when He speaks things happen. There’s no question about it. When He spoke creation into being, things that weren’t there suddenly were. When Jesus spoke, healing took place, food multiplied. When He speaks His words have power and nothing can stop them. I knew He had spoken healing over me and I was filled with belief that it was coming to pass. He cannot speak and nothing happen. It’s just not possible. I was reminded of that this morning before my devotional, and then all of this happened!
And these scriptures, oh how they apply to where I’ve been the past week! I realized recently that I was again depending on my own strength for healing; doing everything I could physically. Spiritually as well though, I was depending on myself for the healing. Yes, I knew the healing would be from God, but I fell into the trap of believing that it depended on me for it to come – me learning the ‘right’ lesson or me sharing the ‘right’ testimony, me having the ‘right’ faith. And then Holy Spirit gave me a gentle tap and reminded me that, no, my healing does not depend on me! It’s all God! Healing comes because Jesus has overcome sickness and overcome evil! I recently heard mention of Deuteronomy 9:4:
Do not say in your heart, after the Lord your God has thrust them out before you, ‘It is
because of my righteousness that the Lord has brought me in to possess this land,’
whereas it is because of the wickedness of these nations that the Lord is driving them
out before you.
When God heals me, it’s because He renders justice on sickness, not because of my righteousness. These scriptures this morning encouraged me so much! For the first time, I felt a sense of joy over the fact that my whole life, all my sins are laid bare before God. There wasn’t fear over that or shame, just gratitude that He sees it all and has “found a ransom.” (Job 33:4)! Oh His love, the depths of His love; His never-ending grace; His compassion; and His joy!!!!!
He gets so much joy out of lavishing gifts on us. A couple of days ago I had the joy of blessing a woman who is less fortunate than me. All she asked for was a slice of pizza from the pizza my sisters were eating. Then I found out she doesn’t have teeth and can’t eat most things; she shared with me that she doesn’t eat everyday because she has to save money for medicine. Instead of the slice of pizza she asked for, I gave her some money for groceries. The amount was insignificant to me, but for her it was extravagant! Seeing her joy over such an unexpected gift gave me so much joy! This morning, as I cried tears of joy and gratitude before God, I realized that’s how He feels too!!! His gifts to us are so small in value for someone who holds the entire universe; but to us, they are extravagant and expensive. And when we are overcome by them, He gets joy in watching us!
What has God spoken over your life? What promise are you waiting to see fulfilled? Rest assured that, when He speaks, things happen; things change! Pray and ask Him for eyes of faith to see that which is yet unseen, because it will change your perspective in a way you could never even have dreamed of!
Have you ever experienced something similar? Feel free to share in the comments!